MATCHBOOK ROMANCE-->MY EYES BURN<-- My eyes burn from these tears You'd think I'd learn other the years Good things wont last forever So what the hell am I supposed to do You only wanted the things I couldnt give to you And you had it all anyway So take take everything and leave me scrambling Reaching for something that wasnt there in the first place Tell me im wrong when I say I cant expect you to stay forever with me I live for that single moment I take back everything Ive said You wore those words on yer lips As if they ment anything anyway Sometimes i feel i could drop off the face of the earth Its seems I do more harm than good And I dont know if its worth me loosing sleep over this So take take everything and leave me scrambling reaching for something that wasnt there in the first place Tell me im wrong when I say it I cant expect u to forever with me I live for that single moment So take take everything and leave me scrambling reaching for something that wasnt there in the first place

---->Pros and Cons of Breathing<--- Bury me standing under yer window with the cinder block in hand. Yeah cuz no one will ever feel like this again. And if I could move Im sure it would only be to crawl back to you. I must have dragged my guts a block..they were gone by the time we (talked).. wooOoOo, I want to hate u half as much as i hate myself.But u kno that I could crush u with my voice. Stood on my roof and tried to see u forgetting about me.Hide the details I dont want to know a thing,. I hate the way u say my name like its something secret. My pen is the barrel of the gun. Remind me which side u should be on Stood on my roof and tried to see u forgetting about me. Hid the details I dont want to kno a thing. I wish I was as invisible as u make me feel (WooOoOo,I want to hate u half as much as I hate my)(1.2.3.4.) //Today was alright. I slept in till about 11 and was on-line most of the day downloading music. then I went out to the "great excape" to see the new exocist, it was pretty freaky and scarey. It wasnt that bad of a movie i think.yay i got to hang out with my sexi Justine...i miss yah chica!//

--->Fenix TX-Phoebe Cates<--- Dont wanna hang around anyone 2day Im sick of playing the same old games cause I kno i cant win them anyway and I will dream of a different lie -->A Song for Everyone<-- I never thought I would get this far searching for the words to say summer wind deserts stars All this could be yers <--> Today was alright got to sleep in till 12, my friend Karie stayed the night. we went to little league last night.There was like no one there, i dunno why we even went. so fuckin bored. This week has been a little tough. My great grandmother passed away the 24th, her and i were very close before her memory went really bad, her and i shared the same birthday.. it was really neat that at the funeral they said a verse from 1986 which was the year i was born,I really miss her alot. But i kno that she is in a way better place than where she was at. She is finally free from all the pain shew as in. It broke my heart when I saw her a few weeks back when she was crying and wanted to go home, now she is finally home<-->

<---Avril Lavigne--> --->Nobody's Home<-- I couldnt tell you why she felt that way, She felt it everyday And I couldnt help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again. Whats wrong, whats wrong now? Too many,too many problems Dont kno where she belongs, where she belongs She wants to go home, but nobodys home. Its where she lies, broken inside with no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes. Broken inside. Open your eyes and look inside, find a reason why. You've been rejected, and now you cant find what you have left behind. Be strong, be strong now. Too many, too many problems Dont kno where she belongs, where she belongs She wants to go home, but nobodys home. Its where she lies,broken inside With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes Broken inside +This song reminds me of my great grandmother who passed away 2day. The last time I saw her, she was crying and telling me she wanted to go home.. she wasnt happy of where she was at, and now she is finally home. I wounder what the hell the "nursing home" did to her to make her go down hill so fast. were they mean to her? Putting things in her head?Im a bit confused. Im srry GG that you had to end yer life in so much fuckin pain.. im srry! I'll see you again someday when its my time to go+

+Do You+ KEEP A DIARY? A blog LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR OFTEN? sometimes LIKE YOUR LIFE? yeah sometimes HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? not at the moment IF SO WHO ARE THEY? uh HAVE A CRUSH? lol yeah FOR HOW LONG HAVE YOU LIKED THIS PERSON? idk DOES HE/SHE KNOW? I think GET GOOD GRADES? yes GET SCARED EASILY? yeah sometimes CRY A LOT? no GET HURT EASILY? Emotionally? all depends GO TO BED LATE? very GO TO BED EARLY? when i have to SAVE YOUR ASSINGMENTS FOR THE LAST MINUTE? Yes its great PRETEND YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT A CERTAIN PERSON BUT YOU ACTUALLY DO? yeah KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? yeah HAVE FIGHTS OFTEN? all depends GOSSIP A LOT? lol sometimes if its good ENJOY SCARY MOVIES? YES!!!!! ENJOY CHICK FLICKS? Yep PLAY HARD-TO-GET? sometimes MAKE EXCUSES TO GET OFF THE PHONE WITH SOMEONE? all depends whos on the other line +Or+ GLOBE OR MAP? map SWEET OR SOUR? sweet HUG OR KISS? both BOY OR GIRL? boy PUNCH OR KICK? kick LONG HAIR OR SHORT HAIR ON GIRLS? Long hair LONG HAIR OR SHORT HAIR ON BOYS? short PHONE OR INTERNET? internet SKI OR SNOWBOARD? snoboard TOMGIRL OR TOMBOY? tomgirl SNOW OR RAIN? Sno so i can board SONG OR PARODY? song SLOW SONG OR ROCK? Slow song, although rock rocks! ANGER OR FRUSTRATION? both MOVIES OR TV? Movies +Someone+ SWEET OR FUNNY? sweet INTELLIGENT OR GOOD-LOOKING? all TALKATIVE OR QUIET? Talkative SPORT-FANATIC OR BOOK WORM? Sport-Fanatic..he needs to support me ROMANTIC OR NOT? Romantic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ENTERTAING OR BORING? Entertaining! CALM OR ACTIVE? sometimes both TRUSWORTHY OR LOYAL? trustworthy FUN TO TALK TO OR FUN TO LISTEN TO? Fun to listen to STUBBORN OR NOT? not HARD TO GET OR EASY? all depends MATURE OR KIDDISH? both SENSITIVE OR TOUGH? tough sometimes sensitive CAREFUL OR CARELESS? careful TALENTED OR CREATIVE? both CUTE OR DROP-DEAD-GORGEOUS? DROP DEAD GORGEOUS!!! ANNOYING OR EASY TO ANNOY? Easy to annoy SHORT OR TALL? tall BLOND OR BRUNETTE? either OLD OR NEW? ne UNIQUE OR PLAIN? unique EXACTLY LIKE YOU OR TOTALY DIFFERENT? Exactly like me STYLISH OR NOT? stylish FUNNY OR HILARIOUS? Hilarious! PREDICTABLE OR NOT? not LOVABLE OR LIKABLE? loveable +HAVE YOU EVER+ LOVED SOMEONE? yes NOT KNOWN IF YOU LIKE SOMEONE OR LOVE THAT SOMEONE? yea BEEN ABLE TO TELL WHEN SOMEONE LIKES YOU? yup BEEN A AFRAID OF GETTING IN A RELASHIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE? no BEEN IN A RELASHIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE? yeah BEEN DUMPED? yeah DUMPED SOMEONE? oh yeah HAD A BROKEN HEART? alot BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART? idk BEEN REALLY EMBARASSED? all the time BEEN KISSED? yeah KISSED SOMEONE? yeah BEEN HUGGED FOR A LONG TIME? yes HUGGED SOMEONE FOR A LONG TIME? yeah HUNG UP ON SOMEONE? yup BEEN HUNG UP ON? my mom? CARED ABOUT SOMEONE WHO DIDN'T CARE ABOUT YOU? sometimes HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN? nope my cousin did and i didnt kno he was cuz he was with me..lol he as like 6 at the time KEPT A REALLY DARK SECRET TO YOURSELF? uh no TOLD SOMEONE'S DARK SECRET? No!!!!!! STOLEN SOMEONE'S BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND nope READ SOMEONE'S DIARY WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION? nope FELT LIKE SPONTANIOUSLY KISSING SOMEONE? yeah..lol megan +Are You+ FUNNY? yes SMART? Sometimes INTELLIGENT? Well yes BRILLIANT? uhm dont go that far FUN? oh yeah ADORABLE? eh IN LOVE? nah IN A RELASHIONSHIP? no MAD AT SOMEONE? yup INTO THE OPPOSITE SEX? yah FUN TO BE WITH? oh yeah..Becky and brent..DENNYS EXCITING? oh yah BORING? shit no PREDICTABLE? nope SOCIAL? relitively TALENTED? yeah SWEET? sometimes TRUSTWORTHY? Absolutely! STUBBORN? all depends QUIET? shit no way ENTERTAINING? I hope so! SPORTY? YEAAAAH SENSITIVE? sometimes about certain thing(s) TOUGH? yup BORED RIGHT NOW? yeah, thats why im doing this thing MISSING SOMEONE RIGHT NOW? oh yeah

Where do you see yourself in 10 years? Being a dentist, having a hott ass husband or bf that would love me forever...LOL Let's say that two days from now the world were to end...what would you spend your last hours doing? Spending as much time with my family and friends Do you prefer short talk or deep conversations? Deep conversations sometimes short Who can you spill your feelings to and feel completely relieved afterwards? Johnny or Becky What's a quote that means a lot to you or represents you or your outlook on life? "You win some, You lose some, You wreck some"-Dale Earnhardt...cuz I wanna race when im older and I love this quote(R.I.P) When you dream, do you see what's happening in a character's view or camera type view? Both… What is your character usually in your dreams? not sure..sometimes i die in my dream or someone who I like alot..that sucks..lol Do you daydream? All the time What do you dream about? Scarey stuff mostly Which 3 people do you trust and are open with the most? Becky,Katie,Vicky What do you think of soulmates? not sure... What's an object you can't live without? my soccer ball What's something you ALWAYS have on you? my cell Wouldn't you just love to hug someone right now? hell yeah What's your opinion on love? sometimes confussing, but when you find someone who loves you for real then,cant wait till that happends to me What's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opp. sex? oh geeze.. fun times gental men...lol What's the nicest thing any one has ever told you? That I was pretty and I didnt kno this dude, he walked up to me and said i was really pretty If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? Becky If you won the lottery what would you do with your, let's say, 18 million dollars? I’d put 6 million in my savings account 4 million in my college account 3 million to some charity, probably for cancer research 2 million to my parents 1 million to my brothers savings account 1.5 million towards a new house and new furniture The other stuff would be spent on clothing and what not for me and 3 friends What thing always makes your day when it happens/ you see it?: When someone who I like gives me a hug What one thing about a friend always pisses you off?: when they are in a "bitchy mood" What confuses you the most about life?: Life in general confuses me… Do you like your life? Why or why not?: yeah. i think so at the moment What is your greatest achievement?: not sure What is the one thing you regret?: Losing Brooks address What is your inner most dream?: To be loved If you could have one wish, what would it be?: To have the perfect body image Do you wish have children?: not until I am married with someone I love If so, how many?: 1 or 2 What year of your life has been the best for you so far?: My junior, but my senior year is gunna rock What one person has totally had impact on your life?: Becky What thought do you find you self thinking of the most daily?: life or preseason What time do you wake up in the morning? 6:30 -facewash: Nutragena -soap/bodywash: dove -lotion: Bath and Bodyworks-Sweet pea -perfume/lotion: Lola Goth -makeup: not sure..juss make up toothpaste: expressions! Citrus -mouthwash: none -floss: mint -deoderent: it smells good..lol /spray kind for soccer -shampoo/conditioner: all depends -mints: WIntergreen -hair products: random drugstore stuff What is your worst fear?: spiders What annoys you? Slurping food,someone calling my name all at once..over talking

|| Today was fun. Even tho we had a heaving morning practice we ran over 4 miles in less than 45 mins. im so proud of myself. In the afternoon we had indoor practice which was alot of fun. Got to play keep away for an hr or so. We talked about the scrimage we are having 2mrrow at Millville, Im so excited about that. Our team is awesome. Im loving it for my last year of High School soccer. Im at my friends Katies house right now. We went on a bike ride to a small store where these hott guys drove around.lol Its alot of fun here at Kates house. welp im done boreing yah...||